What I Want

I think this picture expresses pretty perfectly what I want for myself in 2012.

I used to dream.  I dreamed that I'd at least walk, if not run, the Disney marathon.  I dreamed of settling down and raising a family.  I dreamed of being a published author someday.  And I worked toward those dreams.  I trained for that marathon, and I did a lot of 5k's and even one 10k, although the marathon never happened for me.  I kept my eyes open for the right guy, the one I'd want to raise a family with, and I never found him.  Or, I should say. I haven't found him yet, although the hard realities of my life make never having had those kids more of a blessing than a regret.  And until I got sick and discouraged and, let's face it, depressed, I worked on my writing, too.

It's time for me to discover what my dreams are again, to believe in them, and to start working toward making them a reality.  I know I still want to be a published author, maybe more now than before, with some of those other dreams gone.  So that's the one I'm going to work on right now.  I'm not entirely sure *how* I'm going to work on it.  I feel like I've got a whole set of muscles that have forgotten how to move.  Is there such a thing as author's therapy?  Writer's rehab?  If so, I need to check myself in for an inpatient program!  Short of that, I need to start flexing those creative muscles again, playing with ideas and possibilities, laying the groundwork in my head for putting words on paper.

I'm going to wear those pendants as much as possible this year, to remind myself to Dream and Believe.  Dream and Believe and then Act.  It doesn't get you where you want to be if you don't have all three.

Check Out My Dealie Boppers!

Delia reminded me that I haven't posted a picture of my birthday dealie boppers yet, so here it is!  I apologize for the moon pajamas and my total unwillingness to put on a bra.  That's hard work, and I just wasn't up for it tonight.

You can't see it in the picture, but there are flashing lights on the dealie boppers.  Also, check out my red hair!  I talked to my mom about the green hair thing, and decided not to do it right now.  I'm planning to go to Christmas Eve services with them (I never go to church, so it's kind of a big deal to Mom), and I know it would completely humiliate them for me to show up with green hair.  I know that's silly, but I'll respect their feelings about it.

Also, I talked to the hairstylist, and apparently maintaining an unusual color is a hell of a lot of work.  I'd probably be re-dying my hair every week to two weeks.  I am so not up for that right now.  So I'll be sticking with the fiery, but longer lasting, red.

And since you can't really see them in that first photo, here are the giant hoop earrings that I talked about a million years ago but never posted a picture of.

Aren't they fantastic?  They looked good with the scraggly blond mop that I used to have, but they really work with the red.

Also, taking clear pictures of myself, one handed, with that thing was a serious pain in the butt.  Definitely not designed for taking pictures of yourself one handed.

In other news, there are two jars of cherries draining in the refrigerator right now.  Tomorrow is chocolate covered cherry day!  Messy, but fun.  And the results are worth it.  Better than any chocolate covered cherry you'll buy in the store.  The recipe I use is in the Better Homes & Gardens cookbook.  (Also available online here.)  They're a little harder to find, but if you decide to make this recipe, take the time to find cherries with stems.  Your results will be much better.  (Especially if you're not an experienced candy maker.)

I think that's all the news and pictures for today.  I've started my brother's socks, but just barely.  I need to get trucking on them if he's going to get something more than an IOU in his stocking.  And I haven't finished embellishing my peanut, but maybe I'll have pics of that tomorrow!

Lip balm of the day: a very festive and seasonal White Cranberry.  (It's way yummy!)

Jewelry!

Tonight I went to my sister-in-law's jewelry party.  Now, I'm not much of a jewelry person.  I have one pair of earrings and two puzzle rings that I wear all the time, and that's it.  So I went to support her (it wasn't just that she was throwing a party, she's actually starting up as a rep) and to buy something for my bff, whose birthday is in early July.

I was really surprised.  I found a few things that I really liked!  I ordered a pair of earrings for myself and a really pretty necklace for my friend.  (We rent a beach house every year, and it's become a really important thing for both of us.  The necklace is silver with a cz encrusted starfish pendant.  It's just perfect for her.)  And there are a couple things that I'd really like, but couldn't swing right now.  One was a really pretty silver ring.  (And I think there are a couple more rings I'd like to have.)  Another is a great big pair of hoop earrings.  (I've always wanted a pair of big ol' trashy hoop earrings.  Not that these are trashy, but they're headed in that direction!)  And then there was a silver necklace with a pendant that says "Believe" on one side and "like there's endless possibilities" on the other.  There's an optional second pendant that says "Dream" on one side and "like they will all come true" on the other.

I'd host a party to help my sister-in-law out with her new enterprise, but I don't know anyone in Indianapolis.  All my friends are in Texas and online.  So I was thinking I might ask her about doing a catalog party instead. Does anyone think they'd be interested in helping out my SIL launch her business by taking a look at a catalog and possibly buying a piece or two of fun, mid-range jewelry?  (Nicer than Claire's, less expensive than Kay's.  There is a range of prices, but a lot of the pieces I saw were around $30.)  Absolutely no hard feelings if you're not interested.  I just thought I'd put it out there.  If you are interested let me know, and if she is cool with trying a catalog party I'll mail you one.  (Prepare yourself.  It's a heck of a catalog!)

A small comment on a totally different topic.  The New York Assembly has approved same-sex marriage for the state of New York!  Yay!  I couldn't be more thrilled that very soon everyone in New York, regardless of sex or sexual orientation, will have the right to marry, and all its attendant privileges and responsibilities.  Others will have more to say on this issue (and say it in a way that's both more powerful and more entertaining than I ever could), so I'm just going to say Woo Hoo! and leave it there.

Woo Hoo!

And now, to get back into a habit that has fallen by the wayside lately, the Lip Balm of The Day is: Cat Pee  (I know, it sounds gross.  But it's citrusy and delicious.)